the right thing!?

It's tricky to identify what's the right thing to do.

Sometimes I know what I should do, while sometimes I couldn't stop what I am thinking and doing (even it may not be what people consider as "the right thing").

For example, I think I shouldn't stay in this flat, but I couldn't resist; I shouldn't expect you to change, but I ignore this.

Sometimes I think I fucked it up... ...

We can enjoy our lives in many ways. But this is not a situation I'd expected.

It's in some way messed up.

There's a decent, caring guy but I let him down. And Im here stuggling with this futureless scenario.

That's why I am stupid.

My mom will definately say so.

well, thank you anyway...