KTV

I know I miss KTV, but I am afraid of going there for some reasons.
1st, I know nothing about pop songs here now.
2nd, I dont want to sing or listen to those love songs in case I might burst into tears... As u know, those sad songs are so popular...in every season!

When my sister suggested we go to a KTV this afternoon, I rejected that proposal first. But she's expecting to go there for quite q while....thus I said, alright.

She ordered several pop songs and some I should be familiar with as well. These days, I always go out with my sister running some errands--> try to be busy. But I still cried when she sang the song 第九夜. I kept watching/ staring at TV screen and tried to hide my emotion. But this was just a beginning. I found I cant order any song but happier/merrier ones. Every song reminds me the sorrow goodbye.
After a few times of deep breathe and went to bathroom twice, I felt better.

I dont know how long would it take for me to forget him. Or can I really forget?
Sometimes I hate him; sometimes I miss him; sometimes I regret meeting him; sometimes I feel thankful.
Hopefully I will leave everything in my memory after the nineth night, or maybe, I will know better about this afterwards, or...maybe I'll never forget nor forgive my stupidness.
I know I shouldn't take it so serious. just cant help it.