commemorate-part three

Dec. 27th: missing u in Spain
Our excursion in Spain was 'exciting' and 'relaxed'. We tended to think that Spain is much warmer than England. But it was cold! Maybe it was so different from my imagination that I feel it was just as cold as here.
We are tourists, so we have to go sightseeing and cannot let slip any tourist spots. Well at least we went to most of the popular spots like casa milla, sagarada familia...
In short, we roamed through 'Gaudi Route'.
In spite of the scary crime, we had a good time.

While I was in Spain, I miss England, I miss Leeds, I miss you. That's strange. It wasn't like a trip. And I was absent-minded. I did enjoy my holiday. But it would be nicer with u.
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Jan. 3rd: empty
It’s not so cold. In English way, it is pretty warm today. After studying, I went out to meet friends. Yeah! Starbucks again. But it was sad that the machine had been broken that they couldn’t process solo card. That’s fine. I saved a cup of coffee. It’s not necessary though.
Finishing chatting, they suggested to go shopping. Don’t know why I just wasn’t in the mood for shopping. Guess my mom will be quite happy hearing this. That’s right, your daughter is becoming a frugal.
Yet I went to the Body Shop buy the toner, body cleansing gel, and face mask. 3 for 2, good deal. Then I went to Morrisons for essentials.
It seems nobody’s home yet. Empty suddenly bursts out. My whole day is sunk in the atmosphere of ‘don’t know why’ and I acted like a ghost maybe. I can gradually understand why Lulu doesn’t want to have meals alone, doesn't want to come home alone.
It is like but not equal to lonely. We just tend to mix them up. And lose the sense of existence. How can I enjoy life better??
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Jan. 3rd: girl friend
is a tough job
i don't know how to be a girlfriend:~
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Jan. 6th: limited edition
Women are enchanted with this phrase, limited edition.
To address this broadly, it includes not only limited edition in practical, but also in imagination.
Even in the ready-to-wear market in whice clothing are mass produced, as a woman sees there left only one piece on the shelf and it just happens to be her type/taste...
What happens next is GO(PAY) FOR IT.

I must confess...
I bought a Whittard plate, and a MEXX dress. The sales are so charming that I cannot say no, especially when those two are the only left in the shop. Furthermore, they are in appropriate color and exactly my size...

I know I know I know.
Rules of next week:
1.No shopping
2.No recreation (unless it's free)
3.No coffee/ dringking (refer to rule #2)
4.Keep expenditure less than 35 pounds/week

Remember to remind me if needed.
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Jan. 8th: a goodbye ceremony
Goodbye Ceremony,
I wrote about this topic before.
This writing is inspired by our long conversation this evening.

We know that sometimes we really have to say goodbye to a relationship, to our past, to something unpleasant…
although it is hard.

As time goes by, we think we are recovered, however,
do we really feel happy with that? Or just because we ignore the pain?

When we meet someone, or enter a new situation, the wound would sometimes be cured. But sometimes new relationship discloses the past and magnify the sorrow. That’s what annoying.

Most of time, we cannot say ‘goodbye’ because we wish it’s still possible to go back.

Forget about forgive if we just can't. We'll be fine. But,
Do we really need a ceremony to claim our revive?
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Jan. 19th: Sex and the city-a story about love
It is a story about love. Or make it precisely, finding love.

In the sixth season, all 4 leading roles find their happy ending---love, in every tailored type.
Even Samantha falls in love!! haha, I pretty enjoy the story between samantha and jerry:)

"I am a girl looking for real love." when Carrie says so, I can't help crying...
In fact, I cried all night that night. That's why my self description said 'i am not a waterwork, but i ...' yeah that...
I guess she speaks out what most women think and pursue. It is like a fairy tale David (AI) always believes.

I am a girl who believe in love and happiness. Hope this belief makes me stronger...
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Jan. 22nd: who am I to u
Who am I, to u?
I can't help thinking of this question.
Many 'If...then...' sentences poped up from my head.
But the more I think the more I confused myself.
Unless I can make sure....
while the problem is I can not.

Could I ever understand what u r thinking?
I found no answers.
I become passive and passive
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Jan. 23rd: white out my left side
what's wrong with being usual or ordinary?
since I am interested in fashion and shopping, I can't help being a member of common people.
while on the other hand, I wish I am extraordinary.
I wish I can stand for what I think. but the problem is I don't know what I think. or how to think.

As far as I am concerned, you are lucky to meet those people in your life here no matter how u like/dislike them. Because they make you question yourself and try to become better. This also influences me indirectly.

However, we don't have to feel sorry about not appreciating various styles of art, literature, music or something. let alone the feel of inferiority. You have your own interests and you love to do so. That's respect to yourself. And you try to learn something new, that's nice and brave.

I would try to think, love what I am doing, and try to learn from you guys. To make my ordinary life more interesting, at least, make me love my lifel.

I want to live for myself desperately. Although somebody could be a good motivation...
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Jan. 26th: one week indulging
From 20th Jan-25th Jan. I visited Daphne in Edinburgh, back to Leeds, and then went to London.
A bitter crazy traveling:P

I would've thought that only young people would do crazy things like this. But, I did too.
In fact, traveling is exhausting!! But we all need some occasions to relief ourselves, and need incentives to think and feel.

Different places give us new ideas and stimulate our feelings. I was suffered with lacking of passion, or the passion of express my feeling. And I was troubled with finding myself. But I do exist.
Sometimes I would think that I am doing something important and the only thing I have to concern about is 'just do it'. We don't have to think too much or suspect ourselves. Just make the most of it and enjoy what you are doing. This is what make it/life worth.

I explored the modern art gallery and national gallery of scotland when I was in Edinburgh. British museum is another must go sight. I've been there before, so I just looked around and went to visit Lawrance.
It's nice to meet friends in a foreign country. We talked a lot about our school and life. And he accompanied us to china town and tower bridge. It is especially beautiful in the night:)
And MISATO! I can't believe that we ate at misato for 3 days in a roll.....!!!

Karman and I spent lots of time in national gallery in London. I am not that 'arty', but feeling touched something deep inside my mind. Even I can barely appreciate 'art'; I found my existence.

Musical, another arty campaign u got to do in London. We chose Phanton of the opera and was ready to burst into tears. However, we didn't.

The most strange is I was thinking of you along the journey. Strange and confused.