commemorate-part two

Nov. 18th: do nothing
After endless group meeting in Friday afternoon, I tried to ignore Monica’s suggestion of going shopping (but I still gave her a call). I would rather stay at home do nothing. I walked slowly on my way back to accommodation and found the meadow which was covered with frost this morning seemed like defrost already.

When I entered my room I felt like defrost too. I suddenly realized that the heater I forgot to turn off was keeping warming the room. Dry air and high temperature made me feel sleepy and relax. I shut down the heater, tried to arrange my thought and start writing. It is my interest to write something informal, but I haven’t done in English. I know I am good at this in Chinese.

In Friday afternoon, it is good to listen to Norah Jones or some music that is light and soft; to have a cup of tea or coffee, I like the smell of tea and coffee; to be in a trance, do nothing. This is happiness!
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Nov. 18th: soliloquy
It seems nice but lacks of something.
Something I cannot tell.
What should it be like?
It's hard to explain.
Everything here is fine.
But needs more passion and emotion...
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Nov. 20th: my 80% perfect day
I declined the appointment yesterday, and felt great. In Taiwan, if we said "let's have dinner some time" it means "see you". But if you asked me "when"....that's so difficult to answer. That's why I cannot promise "when".

I went to Starbucks with Devon at noon. It's hardly to study there. And the plan resulted in chatting+a little bit study. But, nice, isn't it?
After a long que, I found one side of "my sofa" was occupied by a couple. I tried to concerntrate on my book but made it a strange scene.

It is dark and cold here after 4:40PM. We went into the freezing wind searching for food. Finally we stopped at the JADE, a Chinese restaurant. The conclusion is that everytime we go to the restaurant, we miss the food in Taiwan:P Anyway, the waiter and waitress are friendly enough to compromise the "exorbitant" price(compared with that in Taiwan). It's a question of feeling.
Lousy food plus nasty staff--->disaster

After dinner, we walked together till the central library. I walked slowly, cuz I don't want to go home. Actually, I am afraid of going back...
I saw the "skyline park" is assembling the moving wheel and carrousel in the millenium square.
Does it have special meaning to arrange a "playground" during X'mas? I don't know but it seems nice:) like fairy tale.

It is a cold and long distance going back. I was walking and singing. I like the feeling of breathing the air and exhaling "smoke". It would be perfect were there a warm hug. 80% perfect anyway!

Oh, my toes became numb with cold by walking in the frigid weather:~ excellent
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Nov. 22nd: little bear
Edward finally gave me this bear! Don't you think it looks like Paul?...........:)
But it's a pity that Ed. kissed it several times before he gave it to me.....-.-"
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Dec. 8th: memory organizing
Skipton /_-------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Dec. 9th: Trial-recipe
Appreciated by Devon, my new trial

ingredient:
1 onion, butter
2 rosemary+basil+salt+chicken fillet
3 mushroom
4 onion powder+milk
5 black pepper

YAMMY YAMMY YAMMY YAMMY YAMMY YAMMY
YAMMY YAMMY YAMMY YAMMY YAMMY YAMMY
YAMMY YAMMY YAMMY YAMMY YAMMY YAMMY
YAMMY YAMMY YAMMY YAMMY YAMMY YAMMY
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Dec. 10th: relaxing weekend
In order to have a relaxed weekend, I tried hard to finish my work on Thursday night.
Fortuenately, i did it i did it!!!!!

This makes me wanna laugh. hahaha laugh and smile all day.
It's not right to say this but....i am happy.

Though it doesn't last for so long....I searched for Coach and B&B in Madrid all day.......
damn- -" I don't want to see the computer screen><
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Dec. 23rd: choice
After coming back from Spain, ‘reality’ becomes closer and closer. One is the approaching of studying and exams; the other is the ‘decision’. But how can I decide?

I know that I’ve been changed. Is it the environment or the people or else? I guess it was the combination of those above. To be honest, it’s like gambling. I might win or lose. What's interesting is that u’ll never know what the result would be.
I don’t want to take the risk but, do I have choice? It’s just like a question of philosophy: Is it my choice or fate?
If I had second chance, would I do the same thing? When I start to ask ‘what if’ questions, I know the answer is obvious…
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Dec. 27th: so called love
Strangely, I didn't feel annoyed when my neighbor tried to ask me something about my absence these days. He said he cannot reach me. Of course. I didn't put my old sim card in my mobile phone. I suddenly don't mind giving him my new number. Maybe it's becuz of my unreasonalbe happy and relax.
"If u like someone and, meanwhile s/he also likes u. We named the moment 'love'. It is precious bcuz it's so rare." People are always seeking for this moment. Some of them even cannot find love along life time. Mystery or truth? u have to experience it urself. Sarcastically, we seldom notice it when we have it. But don't be afraid of lust, worry, and anxiety. What u can do is cherish and enjoy it.
I admit that sometimes uncertainty annoyed. I blame myself of not having clear purpose. But what can I do? Just "follow ur heart" is not a sufficient answer.