Here comes a typhoon this weekend. For the first time and for a long time (this year), we havent experienced a "real" typhoon. They are just like tickles on the feet as speaking of their imfluence. Though this time is different. It is observed that its wind force will achieve 10 degrees of wind strength. (heard it's kinda scary)

Well, it's Friday night. Every one finished work earlier today, or people were forced to leave. When I walked out the building, the tricky pouring rain just stopped. (Guess I was lucky. every scooter rider but me wore raincoat then.) The rain strength was "unstable." from drizzling to pouring, keep changing all the time.

Although the government warns people to be well prepared for the storm, I think most people are just waiting and suspecting. As for me, I have no idea how it would be. A typical impression of typhoon night would be lighting a candle and having a bowl of delicious instant noodles. Im sure Taiwan makes one of the best instant noodles in the world. (Though Im supposed to be on a diet)

Anyway, I've rented 4 DVDs and bought a pudding from 7-11 just now.
Blockbuster was like supermarkets earlier today. Fulled of people who were eager to get something to eat, to drink, and to kill time (if it's nearly impossible to step out of our apartments).

It's midnight now. I can hear the rain drops hitting the roof, more and more frequently, stronger and stronger... I dont feel terrified or something. cuz it's just a start...

The bad thing is, obviously, it will ruin my precious weekend.
can only be companied by DVDs.

Vincent seems to worry about my love life, correction, the so-called happiness. Apparently I lost all my attraction in England. Plus, according to him, Im not Taiwanese men’s type, and my personality is not “adorable.” too tough, too smart or too defensive i guess.
What’s comforting is, i do not surrender to loneliness.

I just wonder, could happiness be without “L-O-V-E?” Maybe, im not young; but if I marry someone just because my clock’s running, that sounds more pathetic to me.

I have a serious problem of "getting serious." what a terrifying finding...
But this does not translate into "Im not ready." Just I can't give it something to exchange with.

I could not say Im tired of love or relationship, tho I dont look forward to it either. Im wondering whether I will be in love, whether I will meet someone who will be sure that I was the one.
I dont have that faith.

Just a few weeks after, people start to ask my love life again. Thanks but there's no one new, nothing interesting.
To some people, get a man/woman is never a problem; to me, it's a huge problem. Maybe I am scary and im serious about it.

Yesterday was my 26 birthday. I had no plan and wanted to do nothing. If I wasnt notified that I got that job, this might be the most depressed birthday I'd ever had. I guess all my efforts finally paid off!

Since I came back to Taiwan, I tried hard to find a job, a job that i want, a job that i like, a job that suits me. However, there seems not enough opportunities for a graduate like me. I went on interview and interview, maybe more than 20 times! Being encouraged and depressed, excited and sad...

A PR agency offered me a job of account executive and i accepted it. But I wasnt happy. I know this is not what I want. I just cant give up thus I still look for opportunities. I got several interviews but again, being encouraged and depressed, excited and sad... It seems like an endless loop. People say "you dont have to worry that much, you just come back for a few months." tho I cant help it.

I dont know whether I got some luck finally. A watch company offers me a position of marketing assistant. I gotta tell u that I was so happy that I decide to quit my current job immediately. although the salary is a bit lower.

I took this offer as the best birthday present. tho i did get some other "real" presents from my friend and flatmates:P

I know this is just a beginning. I'll do my best!

to make things happen, u gotta work hard, try hard...
sometimes things just dont go smoothly while u have to keep faith in u, and not to give up.
tho it's kinda exhausting to persist... i know i will get there, i will.

im going to my third interview with Y&R Ad. next Tuesday. I hope everything goes really really well. cuz i know it's not easy to get a job u really really want, and really really like. That's why I've been trying so hard.

He said he hopes I can get what I want, and get a good outcome. He said nothing more.
Somehow, I just dont know how to keep our conversation. And maybe there's no need to.

As I told u that many job opportunities will be released armong the chinese new year time, I refuel my energy to start my job hunting.

It's nice to have chances to interview with Uni-president and ELCA. Both are very good companies. And the most important is they are my favorite industries.

Please please keep your fingers crossed for me!
I really really want to get into a good company!

I got this feel often; I am still me, but I am not who I am anymore. I bet you would sometimes feel so as well.

Since I came back to Taiwan, I usually feel lonely and empty. Maybe things just changed.
I know I should not think of past that much, but I bring many people's habits and way of living. And they all mix together now.

I found myself try to make my flat feel like that dearest flat down on Kelso Road. By buying some similar items and applying your life style, not totally but maybe it's wrong.

time never goes back, why cant I just let go?
Maybe I just miss my life.

Friday night, ism asked me to go to a music cafe called "riverside music cafe." Obviously, it is quite famous in Taipei. When we arrived, all the tables are reserved. Fortuenately, some didnt show up and guess what, we were the first priority to get a table.

Although I know nothing about jazz, I did enjoy the play.
Guess this was the magic of live music.

This place is quite ordinary. It doesnt have modern decoration and it's collection of wine/ alchohol is poor, let along its dull cocktail menu...BUT, the enthusiasm and encouragement of music are the best part of riverside music cafe. No wonder there are so many music player, bands would like to perform in here.

Ivan introduced me a friend who is 12 years older than me. He's kinda amazing to me.
Maybe Ivan has the same feeling.

I dont know exactly how he lives his life and what is his life like so far. But, as he goes on travelling around the world, I think he must be rich...

well, i should learn something from him.