I have a serious problem of "getting serious." what a terrifying finding...
But this does not translate into "Im not ready." Just I can't give it something to exchange with.

I could not say Im tired of love or relationship, tho I dont look forward to it either. Im wondering whether I will be in love, whether I will meet someone who will be sure that I was the one.
I dont have that faith.

Just a few weeks after, people start to ask my love life again. Thanks but there's no one new, nothing interesting.
To some people, get a man/woman is never a problem; to me, it's a huge problem. Maybe I am scary and im serious about it.

Yesterday was my 26 birthday. I had no plan and wanted to do nothing. If I wasnt notified that I got that job, this might be the most depressed birthday I'd ever had. I guess all my efforts finally paid off!

Since I came back to Taiwan, I tried hard to find a job, a job that i want, a job that i like, a job that suits me. However, there seems not enough opportunities for a graduate like me. I went on interview and interview, maybe more than 20 times! Being encouraged and depressed, excited and sad...

A PR agency offered me a job of account executive and i accepted it. But I wasnt happy. I know this is not what I want. I just cant give up thus I still look for opportunities. I got several interviews but again, being encouraged and depressed, excited and sad... It seems like an endless loop. People say "you dont have to worry that much, you just come back for a few months." tho I cant help it.

I dont know whether I got some luck finally. A watch company offers me a position of marketing assistant. I gotta tell u that I was so happy that I decide to quit my current job immediately. although the salary is a bit lower.

I took this offer as the best birthday present. tho i did get some other "real" presents from my friend and flatmates:P

I know this is just a beginning. I'll do my best!

to make things happen, u gotta work hard, try hard...
sometimes things just dont go smoothly while u have to keep faith in u, and not to give up.
tho it's kinda exhausting to persist... i know i will get there, i will.

im going to my third interview with Y&R Ad. next Tuesday. I hope everything goes really really well. cuz i know it's not easy to get a job u really really want, and really really like. That's why I've been trying so hard.

He said he hopes I can get what I want, and get a good outcome. He said nothing more.
Somehow, I just dont know how to keep our conversation. And maybe there's no need to.