Im not a loner. But I enjoy being alone sometimes.
Many think that going to a movie or travelling alone is incredible/unbelievable, however it is not so difficult for me to do these myself. Moreover, bcuz different people have different taste of film and different habit of travel, which would make it hard to decide (which film to catch, where to go, how to travel...). Well, above things are just some reasons. Sometimes you just cant find the right person/people to go with; you just cant find the right timing to invite people; sometimes, you just want to escape/ sneak away.

A friend told me that I look like a loner and I am independent outside, but I definately soft and girly inside.
I have no question of this description or judgement, but, how would I become what I am now??
Maybe it's a mystery to even my mom (who often thinks I am a strange child).

What am I really like?? If I couldn't find the answer, should I keep asking?

Maybe everyone is somewhat restricted by surrounding things or the situation s/he is in, and thus s/he cannot be himself/herself completely (well, at least 85% of oneself). But how can one be changed bcuz of study or work? This is ridiculous. I would rather buy this: I am like this originally. However, this is also my fault. Im supposed to cheered others instead of being influenced. I was bad-tempered but Im absolutely no character here! Im so sweet and thoughtful that even I myself wonder what's wrong with me!

But, if you couldn't give me what I am looking for or what I need, can I blame you with that? It's just different personalities and life style. And it's not a relationship at all. You know better than I do. I am just blind maybe:)

Damn, I am complaining again!!!

We are all alone like small islands. Just, people need to learn to care about others.
Hope I will find my way:)

It's tricky to identify what's the right thing to do.

Sometimes I know what I should do, while sometimes I couldn't stop what I am thinking and doing (even it may not be what people consider as "the right thing").

For example, I think I shouldn't stay in this flat, but I couldn't resist; I shouldn't expect you to change, but I ignore this.

Sometimes I think I fucked it up... ...

We can enjoy our lives in many ways. But this is not a situation I'd expected.

It's in some way messed up.

There's a decent, caring guy but I let him down. And Im here stuggling with this futureless scenario.

That's why I am stupid.

My mom will definately say so.

well, thank you anyway...

As you know, I've always been wondering about whether I am smart or not.
If I was smart, I would not turn down the one who knows me and treats me nice;
if I was smart, I would know what to do instead of trapping myself...

They say life is about journey; they say you should follow your heart; they say love is inevitible... How to do without regret? Should we listen to what others say?
Nevertheless, one only experiences him/herself through one's entire life...

Finding the right fragrance is not easy and always confused me.
I don't use perfume regularly. I had my first EDT maybe 2 years ago. It's a KENZO.
Believe it or not, it still has at least half bottle left.
I bought Bvlgary green tea fragrance in the airport when I went back from Spain. I like its fresh but I cant say that I love it.

I bought 212-sexy a week or two ago. This is my latest obsession.
I think I like this. But the prob is, will u be loyal to just one fragrance?
The One from D&G is also great!!!

my laptop finally revive tho it's still mute...
but i dont know where the prob is, cuz ive already install the needed driver for my audio card...
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well, it's been a long time i haven't got on line as well as updated my blog.
BUT i dont remember what to write about those happened during this period...
my emotions and mood are changing, and many things are changed too.
I think i need a new start.