i dont know

"who's the girl in your life?" I still remember the answer to the question told by him.
"i dont know what you want." I still remember how he said so.

What I want is simple, however I cannot expect too much and I cannot hurt myself. He should've known that it's also hard for me. I wanted to get involved but I simply can't.

Then he left; I move on with sorrow.
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But I am changed.

I tell myself to do what I want no matter what's gonna happening. I believe you can feel it, however, I dont know what you want...

I love you but I am getting tired... tell me what to do?